21/9

21/9/2005---> What a MEMORABLE DAY for me~!!~ One year has been gone~!~ Thinking back last year’s today, I was so sad, crying for few hours, having my last dinner at home with all my tears, making dad n mum worried so much~ When it was the time to get ready to KB airport, I cried and screamed to mummy that I don’t want to go to UK anymore~ This made mummy more worried about me~ And she was also crying together with her stupid daughter, keep on telling me that 2 years will be very fast~ Finally, time to leave my sweet home……went to airport. There were few of my frens who were still at KB went to send me, ming off. When mum and dad were going to leave me, I was crying like mad again!!!! My heart was like being torn apart when I was looking at my dad n mum walking away~ I’m not going to see them for years………can’t believe that!!! Still have to continue my way…….When I was at KLIA, my dearest brother and my one gang of lovely friends were there, waiting for me.. Of coz I was so happy to see all of them, as I was wondering when am I going to meet all of them again?~! I was so thankful that they have made me laughed for at least 1 or 2 hours on that day before I board onto the plane. But when it was the time for boarding, again……I felt like dying!!!! Need to say good bye to all my friends again!! I hate the feeling to leave so so so much!!!! That was the 1st time in my life that I cried until my tears were dried!! Completely empty! And it made me felt so tired when I was on the plane!!! I can’t cry anymore…..
Now, when I think back of that most suffering day in my life, my heart is still aching….. although it is such a stupid behaviour, I’m just like this!!! Can’t stop crying for hours…….the most stupid gal in the world~!~ everyone was laughing at me… but I don’t care about that! I just can’t control my feelings……….it was so painful!!!!!

28/9/2006 is coming soon! Next week, is my turn to leave again!!! I hope I could be stronger….. won’t cry so much anymore! Can I do it??? I don’t wish to cry…. But I know that is IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!! Sighhhhhhh…….. :~(